I am horrible at updates!!!

Okay, so it's been several months since I last wrote anything, so here it goes. Ben got a job working for some members who run a home business selling homeopathic remedies. He runs all of the credit card orders and that sort of thing. It's only three hours a day, but it works with his schedule. He's planning on getting another job over the summer.

I unfortunately lost my job at the clinic. I have been pretty sick lately and the Doc's don't really know what is wrong. My body couldn't handle the crazy running around, and was shutting down on me. Plus I really didn't like floating around the clinic. I couldn't get a grasp on the different departments during the VERY short time I was in each one. Ugh, let's be honest, I hated floating. I love being a Medical Assistant, just not under that particular title. So I am looking, but there really isn't much out there. Thank goodness for savings, and wonderful parents who let us eat their food!!!!

Back in January, when my pain was at it's worst, my doctors ordered a pelvic ultrasound. I was bleeding really bad during my periods, and I was having pelvic/abdominal cramps so bad I couldn't even get out of bed. I was nauseated and was taking a handful of pills every morning and every night just to make it through the day. It was horrible. They found what is called a uterine septum, or in other words, a wall that divides my uterus. They don't know how thick it is, or how complete it is (how far down the wall goes) because I haven't had an MRI, but one OB/GYN thinks it has nothing to do with my pain, another thinks it has everything to do with it. I think it is the cause since it began shortly after I went on birth control. I went to a doc in Wenatchee (the one who thinks it's the cause) and I asked him to do surgery to take it out, since my doc here in Moses doesn't do that kind of surgery. After looking at my ultrasound and talking with me for like an hour, we decided not to do surgery. Apparently, it's not such a great idea to cut it out just because you can. It can potentially cause more problems, like scarring, that could prevent me from getting pregnant. So he told me that if I have any miscarriages to get another appointment with him and we will re-evaluate the situation. I was really impressed with his knowledge on my condition and how candidly he spoke to me. He didn't talk down to me like I was stupid. He didn't talk over my head just because I was in the medical field. He talked to me like I was a person, who is facing something unfamiliar and scary. Plus it was nice to hear that this ridiculous amount of pain wasn't just in my head, he actually listened to me and acknowledged my situation, fears, hopes, and questions. Why can't there be more doctors like this in the world?

Ben has been so amazingly strong during this whole thing! Between my Rheumatoid Arthritis and now this, he has never once said anything degrading or hurtful to me. He is always trying to lift me up and help me think positively. Plus he is being thrown into a world full of crazy medical terms and concepts and he is catching on really quickly. I am usually a very upbeat person, but these last few months I have been really stressed and a little bit depressed to tell you the truth. There is nothing better than a great big hug from your husband when you are feeling down to let you know how much you are loved!

I know that years down the road I will be grateful for the experiences that I am having now, but as for the present, I can't wait for them to be over! I can only hope and pray that this all blows over soon so I can get back into my routine that I miss more than anything! Well, until next time!